Isn’t It Too Soon For The Pain To Start Crawling
I meant to blog last week. I didn’t but I could. I typed up this really nice post and saved it through the Tumblr app. When I logged on to make final revisions and proceed to publish my post , I couldn’t find it. You could say I kind of gave up on that. Whats lost is lost, plus that was a good post. i wanted to do it justice by not butchering it in the attempted recollection and re-write process. Lets just pretend this is the first post I intended to write, okay?
Unfortunately we can’t. When I wrote that first post I was in a more positive phase you could say. I actually recounted all the good memories of 2012, including my 18th birthday and what I spent the majority of my Christmas Break doing (basically watching television everyday). You could say this was a chapter in my memoir titled “Young and Naive.” I spent the majority of the post reminiscing about the past year and what was to occur in the future. Right now what I’m facing is something I thought would not occur. Definitely not six days into 2013. There is no more ‘positive, calm, or delighted’ me. All there is, is me in a pool of tears. (Hence the exaggeration, but there is sadness, anger and tears).
“It’s amazing how much you can hide just by putting on a smile.” -Demi Lovato
It’s honestly amazing how, turning your frown upside down can change everything to the outside world. This afternoon, tonight, today, at some point that was me. You made the situation about you. You and your friends tweeted about “it” and it made me feel so small. Would I do the same thing to you? No, because I’m not sinking to your level. Quite simply, I’m not you. You and your friends made me cry, by indirectly attacking what I do. Unlike you, I’m not going to retort to such behaviour; I’m going to be mature. Direct or indirect, this is bullying at its finest.
The least you could of done is given me a simple answer privately instead of retorting to a public outlet that everyone can see. Are you tweeting just to tweet? Are you trying to get people to support you? Which one is it? Haven’t you heard the danger of a single story? If you haven’t, maybe you should go and watch the video. Here’s the link to the video. It’s empowering, moving, inspiring and educational. A tool you could use in your life.
When your friends
joined you in this…. When they followed and continued your message, they became as weak as you. As long as people following you remain unaware of the situation, you could be talking to thin air. A little silly now, don’t you think? If this is what you call an ambush, a scare…it won’t work on me. You obviously don’t know who I am, and that’s because you wouldn’t and you never will.
To go and stomp all over someone while like this holds bad on your character. Promoting a cause or event solely for yourself does not cut the benefit. Building your group of inclusivity makes you more of an outsider than an insider. It makes you just like the outsider you made me and continue to make me feel like.
Just know, some of these scars I wear are of your accord. Yes, you’ll defend yourself and try to relinquish the blame but deep down inside you know the truth. It truly is such a shame. If I have to take time away from a social networking site because of your words, then you’ve created some damage. You’ve created damage that I won’t forget, and that I won’t write off.
I doubt you’ll read this, but just incase you do. This is for you:
I’ve seen your true colours and its disappointing. I never wanted it to be like this.
Oh and I don’t do fake. The only people I have in my life, understand ME for ME. They are real friends not decorations
Dreams and Aspirations
As I write this post, I’m thinking about writing about something else. From the moment I came home I knew what I wanted to write, when I opened my laptop I knew what I wanted to write. I wanted to vent more like rant about what I was doing at Church for 6 hours. I wanted to rant particularly about the actions of individuals. But I won’t even though they can. Because you know what they say, things change and things happen. Yes things happen. And the thing that happened was Twitter. I’ve had some time to really reflect on what I’m going to blog about. This is the beauty of reflection. You get to cleanse yourself of irrelevant thoughts to focus on what you really want. The power to reflect in itself is a gift. Reflection combined with communication creates a very powerful tool. Don’t abuse the gift, you can inspire people; you can be the inspiration with this one tool.
On to what I really wanted to blog about. Lately, the majority of Trending Topics on Twitter didn’t catch my interest and to be honest some seemed like sheer stupidity to me. But today one of the Trending Topics was “#ProudToBeAFanOf.” I tweeted “#ProudToBeAFanOf @ddlovato @Hedleyonline @neverestmusic who taught me to stay strong, believe & to chase my dreams. I’m so grateful, Xo.” Neverest tweeted back “Proud of U.” To be honest, I’m proud of me too. These artists represent some of the positive role models in my life. They don’t just paint a picture and say I’m finished, they talk about the struggles and the steps they had to take to get to where they’re today. They talk about the entire journey, both the good, the bad and the blocks on the road in between that they’ve had to overcome. I couldn’t have asked for any other artists to be a fan of.
They give me hope that I, no, that we can become who we aspire to be through belief, faith, motivation and hard work. Because no one ever gets anywhere without working hard or by siting on their couch doing nothing at all. One of my followers tweeted that she’s a proud fan of me. I really took it to heart. And I won’t stop until I reach my dreams, but everything happens one step at a time.
For now, I need to make it through my three exams this week so I can enjoy my month of Christmas break. And then its time for a game plan, Xo
P.S: 22 days until my 18th birthday! 17 you have been good to me!
Boyfriend -Justin Bieber
Justin Bieber “Boyfriend”
Today Justin Bieber released the first single off his album Believe. Bieber’s newest single is titled “Boyfriend.” In less than 24 hours, the single has already reached number 1 on iTunes. Beliebers have been blowing up the Twitter scene in anticipation and in support of the new single.
The song opens up with Bieber whispering “If I was your boyfriend I’d never let you go. I can take you places you ain’t never been before.” From here Bieber turns to his faseltto showing the world that despite hitting puberty, his voice has retained some of it’s higher range. More or less the song retains this pattern, hinting in fact that there is a lot of repetition within the song. The song contains words such as fondue, Buzz Lightyear, swag and of course the track’s name “boyfriend.” Is it just me or does this suddenly remind you of Justin Timberlake after his N’SYNC days? After listening to this song, I suddenly found the urge to play ‘What Goes Around Comes Around’ by Mr. Timberlake himself.
I want to applaud Justin for growing into his new voice, accepting it and using what he’s got. He’s truly shown that despite having a smaller range, there are various ways he can shape his voice and use it to his potential. As for my opinion? I’m not 100% in love with it, but the hook is very catchy. This is partly due to the fact that I love Indie, Rock/Alternative music. I also feel that the lyrics are weak, but I’ll give him props for rapping. It’s nice to see artists taking risks, because with these risks they reveal to the world their hidden talents. They’re sharing parts of them that we wouldn’t have known without taking these risks.
Rating: Form your own opinion. Don’t take my word for it because you may think something else
Black History Month
Wednesday officially marked the last day of Black History Month. As an African Canadian, who’s parents immigrated from Ghana I am proud of my heritage. I believe that we should not only take to the month of February to celebrate our culture, but that we should celebrate our culture every day of the year. During the month of February ‘AfricanKidProblems,’ ‘GhanianProblems,’ ‘#IncorrectAfricanParenting’ were all trending on Twitter. At Church we had an African Caribbean mass which I sang at, and at School biographies of famous African Canadians were read in addition to the days set prayers. These biographies were reading every other day (2 to 3 times a week). This baffles me, due to the fact that number one; were reading biographies of African Canadians. Yes, people can now acknowledge what they contributed to society but in my opinion those are not prayers. And I doubt that people actually listen to them.
There are a number of things that particularly bother me about the things I have witnessed in February. One, why is it that all blacks take to February to take pride in who they are and where they are from? They should do that everyday regardless if it’s Black History or month. Two, those biographies that are read during morning prayers to integrate an aspect of Black History month into our curriculum some way. I think our schools have to become more creative in acknowledging Black American and Canadians during this month. A guest speaker, a presentation full of dancers and musicians sharing their heritage with us and ACTUAL prayers. I just wished my school community could have done more to celebrate Black History Month
QOTD: How did your school, parish or community celebrate Black History Month?
I logged on to Tumblr and saw this. What an amazing thing. Life is truly an amazing and beautiful thing =)
We’re two days away from the holiday most people love to hate. I’ll admit I’m one of those people. I rather find this holiday somewhat amusing for various reasons. Saint Valentine’s Day which has commonly been shortened to Valentine’s Day is celebrated annually on February 14th. This day is celebrated by couples who show their love and affection through, cards, gifts and intimate dinners. While those of us, like me, who are single sit there with jealousy burning in our eyes because we are alone on this day. We often sit on our sofas contemplating why we are alone on this day. Some of us plan a night full of romance movies, while we eat popcorn and ice cream. We do this to prove to ourselves that we’re not truly alone or that fairy tales actually exist in this crazy complex world. Deep in our hearts, we know that the day will come where we’ll have someone special to spend Valentine’s Day with.
What bothers me about this day is the fact that people resort to this one day to show their love for one another. That this day is the only acceptable day to surprise your loved one and shower them with poem and gifts. But it’s not. I don’t think love should be simplified into one day, into 24 hours, into 1440 minutes. Love should be celebrated everyday, regardless of what day or month it is. If you truly love someone you’ll find new ways to show them everyday. Even the simplest things, never get old. And to those who think that Valentine’s Day is only for those in intimate relationships, it’s not. I believe that Valentine’s Day is a day to show appreciation for every kind of love present in your life. This includes your siblings, and relationships with your friends and best friends. Valentine’s Day should be limitless.
To those who are not in a relationship with a significant other, you are not alone. You have friends and family who love you! Happy Valentine’s Day to all my readers and followers. XoXo
QOTD: How are you spending Valentine’s Day?